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[myself] Not happy with updates...

Yeah, I'm not going to lie.
I hate the updates of our boys TVXQ's news.
I hate it.
Yunho announced that he's going to try musical.
Yay, woohoo, woot! etc etc...
Okay, when exactly will all of you guys get together and make music like you used to do?

I believe my dear Yunho who is a 'SINGER' is gone...
I believe my beloved group TVXQ is gone...
I rather not believe all this and continue to 'always keep the faith'
But reality is harsh (and believe me, what would I give to be able to kick it at the butt) and I'm sad to not able to listen to those mesmerizing, soothing music made by the 5 or them (note 5 of them, not '3')

[FOOD] Yum Yum Cafe

Really [tin ng sau], Kampar got crap-ed up by crappy restaurants.



Just now, I’m eating dinner in a crap restaurant (I don’t know if I can really call it a restaurant but it’s not a café either so yeah…)
We never guess it would be this bad until our order started arriving.
I ordered a lemon juice and see this! What the bleeping hell is this?!



There’s a plum in my lemon juice. I asked the waiter who sent the drinks and he asked me to wait while he go and check it out. It’s been a while and I think he’s not coming back (talk about service, huh?)
So I strode up to the counter and ask the waitress if it’s really my lemon juice and she told me it is and it’s their style to put plum inside (Sweet, idiots who like to customize default drinks, should have given special name to it so I won’t order it)

It tasted like isotonic drinks with a lil bit of lemon and plum. And it cost me RM2.50 (good lord, I won’t order it if I knew it ONLY isotonic drink *roll eyes*)
- The waiter returned later with other drinks to other tables so I guess I’m right that he’ll never come back (not coming back with MY explanation, that’s it)
- And the lemon in the picture comes from my sister’s ice lemon tea (she took pity on my lemonless lemon juice drink)

Later, our food started coming in. Mine is fine, just normal but not so tasty. My sister’s rice is the bad one. She ordered chicken curry rice but look here! (pardon the finished dish)



It doesn’t tasted ‘very’ chicken if you get what I mean. Normal chicken curry rice won’t have this vegetable [ladyfinger] in the ingredient list unless it is fish head curry or vegetable curry. I was like “Stop eating this crap, we should tell them it’s not chicken curry” and my sister replied “Well, there’s CHICKEN and CURRY here so I don’t think they’ll do anything about this crap”. FAILED

My brother’s rice is okay because it’s hard to go wrong with only egg and sausage, you know ^^;;
- But later, it did go wrong as my brother refused to eat the last bite of his rice. Apparently, the egg is too salty for normal level.

My mom’s noodle is not okay. It’s not in the right color and it’s tasteless. My mom felt a lil bit disgusted after eating it. FAILED
- By the way, one point that contributed to this F grade is the waitress took the dish and walked through a rainy pathway (instead of going through the sheltered one) to our table

2 SAVED, 2 FAILED.
VERDICT: FAILED.
We will not visit this shop ever again.

[myself] Me, a loner?

I wonder if I'm a loner?
I don't think I understand the definition fully because my dictionary is the urban dictionary. But some of them really hits the mark, but then again, totally missed some. Maybe I have split personality and one of it is a loner?

I don't speak much with strangers because I don't think sharing information with a just-met-person agreeable. This might peg me as an introvert but there are times where I talk a lot in my group of friends. After that, I will think back and couldn't believe that I could talk that much.

Once, me and my friends chat about personality and eventually it's about me.
They said that on the outside, I look like I'm very guarded and hard to approach. And that I'm cold, HA~!

To add in points, no long after we played some animal personality quiz from the newspaper and guess what represent me?
Tiger? No.
Bear? No.
Shark? No.
It's snake, a cold-blooded reptile.
Perhaps I'm cold after all.

It didn't help that I'm stuck with a super street-smart social girl at school.
She overshadows me and nobody knows who I am other than [name]'s friend.
Lol, I didn't even get invited to my own name-changing party.

Besides being a loner, I'm also weird.
Common sense is not for me to possess.
Heck, I know my mother is a women and father a man but that is as far as my not-so-common-sense goes.
That's why I scored so damm low in my composition papers.
Hey, I'm good in language and so, but it's always composition which drags me down.
I think I'm creative but I guess I just couldn't figure out why social issues happened at school and how to handle/prevent it. *shrugged*
Sometimes I think my ideas are really good, creative you can call but when the others heard about it, they'll just smile and shrugged it off with the thought "What kind of freaking idea is that?!" in their mind.
I know, their looks never changes... it's always the tight smile while the brain try to figure a way out from me

Recently, I kind of reached my limits because I'm stationed with the girl mentioned earlier (the super street smart social girl) and I'm kind of squished/cramped or whatever you called it whenever she gets along with the other and I don't.
I actually don't mind but I don't like how it looks on me. I don't like pity and I don't want anyone to think that I'm lonely.
I like to be alone, mind you.
But in this country, society controls how everything goes.
If the society thinks that being a loner is weird, then I'm weird.

I looked like a Grim Reaper while the girl looked like the bloody blonde in Legally Blonde. It's the black hairs that hold her back from being in that shoe.
Hey, it's not my fault that I love black, white and grey.
But in this country, it's my fault.
My friend pegged me as an Emo, and nobody cares what I write.
Not even when I'm declaring my suicide attempt.
Not that I have the gut to do it but if I can get my hand on a painless, quick death, I'll gladly embrace it. (provided it's free)

[myself] I want to kill myself

I want to kill myself….
But I never have the guts to do it, I hate pain…
A few painless suicide way cross my mind a few times and I wonder if I should do it too…
For example, downing pills (a well-known method – success rate 50%) I think to succeed, must take a lot of pills =O
Another way that I thought is painless is to down poison but before I manage to die, it will be excruciating pains in the stomach and mouth….
Apparently, there is no easy way….

People say they don’t know why some people attempted suicide or even entertained the thoughts of suicide, that’s because you are lucky enough to avoid contact from both Depression and Stress…
Anyway, I don’t think my life is worth living…
I hate it…
I hate my studies…
I hate my-would-be job…
I hate this world…
I hate everything…

People avoid me because I’m weird and freakish…
My friend calls me emo… maybe I am emo, but then again it’s not illegal so who cares…
It will be great if ending my life is as easy as clicking the button [Disconnect].
If anyone can come up with a painless way to suicide, he/she most probably win a Nobel prize because many people will be queuing to get it….

I want to kill myself…
I google up ‘suicide’ and found many ‘inspirational’ message or whatever…
It’s no use for me, I think…
I hate it when nobody listens to what I say…
I hate it when people come and start giving advices – Hey, advices are cheap, I get it free online so stop preaching here, yeah?
I hate it that I’m emo…
I hate the fact that I’m here…
I hate myself for feeling lonely…
I hate everything…
I hate spammer for their thoughtless actions…
I hate smokers for their stupid hobbies…
I hate open-burners for their idiotic rubbish burning
I hate the fact that I never get the answer I want when I ask question
I hate the brainless lecturer who sucked at teaching
I hate the stupid shoplot university I’m studying…
I hate the place I’m living in…
I hate that I can’t voice my opinion freely because I’m afraid I’ll get sent to ISA
I hate you (if you plan to spam my blog with the comment – You’re an idiot)

[News] Xiah Junsu, Hero Jaejoong and Michy Yoochun, members of TVXQ/DBSK, will form a new unit!

The 3 have signed an exclusive management contract with Avex Management, and will soon begin activities. They will perform at the Dome as a new unit this year in June.

More details here :

JUNSU/JAEJOONG/YOOCHUN THANKSGIVING LIVE IN DOME

-June 5th (Saturday)　Venue opens: 16:00/ Performance begins: 18:00
Kyocera Dome, Osaka

-June 6th (Sunday)　Venue opens: 14:00/ Performance begins: 16:00
Kyocera Dome, Osaka

-June 12th (Saturday)　Venue opens: 16:00/ Performance begins: 18:00
Tokyo Dome

-June 13th (Sunday)　Venue opens: 16:00/ Performance begins: 18:00
Tokyo Dome


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Credit: jpopasia
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Form new unit?!
Form your bleeding head, my God!
I love TVXQ, DBSK or whatever name they use but surely not a group where it's not 5! 5-1=0 / 5+1=0, so why 5-2= success?

[myself] Listening to some music...

I was listening to the radio online when suddenly some part of the lyric of a song catch my attention.

An empty room can be so deafening,
The silence makes you wanna scream,
It drives you crazy.

It's kind of something I thought of before.
And I like how the words are used to make meanings~

The song is 'I can't hate you anymore by Nick Lachey' Click HERE for the lyric!

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Picture credit: Google

[review] Immortality Bites by Michelle Rowen

I'm kind of surprised that there is vampire novels that will let me down.
Actually, there are a few but the interest never stick around long enough to get the titles in.

For this one, I actually stick around and read until book 2 but I guess my patience runs out. Too bad for this one, I've just finished reading Jeaniene Frost's Night Huntress Series. So, comparisons are inevitable. This novel series by Michelle Rowen, sad to say, pale in comparison to J.Frost's series.

When I read vampire novels, I read about their strength, weakness, what they can do and what they can't. For Bitten and Smitten, I'm not sure what the whole thing is about. Well, there are vampire-hunters and vampires but the whole thing....uh, how to say?
Action? - Average
Romance? - Uh, average?
Vampirism? - Other than drinking blood and having fangs, they are all humans alike.

I didn't get to read further than a few chapters off book 2 but I'm sure the later ones are better than the first book (otherwise, M.Rowen won't release it). So, for those who like this series, please don't bash/spam me yeah, I'm just speaking what I'm thinking in MY blog.

I give this a 2 out of 5...

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[myself] Me, my opinion and I, not you...so stay back! *growls*

I just read about some recent news of TVXQ and I’m not very happy with it.
ScrewSME!
There are many speculations that TVXQ will disband… *sigh*
Seriously, why is this happening?
I know, ‘Keep the Faith’~~
But faith can’t fill up the stomach…

I don’t want them to split up.
I don’t want them to sing Japanese song (if I want a Japanese singer, I’ll look in Japan)
I don’t want them to become actors (if I want to idolize actors, I will know where to search)
I want TVXQ to come back!
I want TVXQ’s Korean songs!
I want TVXQ as singer!
….
….
….
*sigh* But this is not happening now….

My logic tells me that they are doing stuff like this because they are humans.
They need to eat
They need money
They need new experience

I really hate logics.
Isn’t that great if stuff could just go my way?
Then there will be no war… =O

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Picture credit: onlyone-uknow

[MV teaser] J.Rich | Goodbye My Love (ft. TVXQ's Yunho)

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So much that I want to cry....

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[News] With TVXQ's break, Avex Entertainment lose millions of dollars

Last saturday, AVEX announced on their official website that TVXQ/Tohoshinki will be halting their activities as a group. However the members will pursue their solo activities.

Matsuura Katsuhito, president of AVEX Group Holdings Inc., has revealed his shock at the news on his Twitter, saying, "You have no idea how big a hit AVEX has taken. It is hard for me to talk about this because I have to consider the standpoint of Korean agency SM Entertainment, but I will try to make [TVXQ] remain for [the group's] Japanese fan club 'bigeast'."

The Japanese entertainment site Zakzak (www.zakzak.co.jp) quoted Tomisawa Issei (Japanese music critic) who said: "TVXQ's break from their musical activities will result in sales losses for Japanese management agency AVEX worth from as little as 3 billion yen (31.9 million dollars) to as much as 5 billion yen (53.2 million dollars)."

Read more: http://www.kome-world.com/us/news-9760-with-tvxq-s-break-avex-entertainment-lose-millions-of-dollars-.html#ixzz0kYrQ0N7u

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Credit: kome-world.com
Source: Asiae
Picture credit: google.com + sharingyoochun
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[myself] A Poem: 'Listen' by Author Unknown

When I ask you to listen to me
and you start giving advice,
you have not done what I asked.
When I ask you to listen to me
and you begin to tell me why I shouldn't feel that way,
you are trampling on my feelings.

When I ask you to listen to me
and you feel you have to do something to solve my problem,
you have failed me, strange as that may seem.
Listen! All I asked was that you listen.
Not to talk or do-just hear me.
Advice is cheap. Ten cents will get you both Dear Abby and
Bill Graham in the same newspaper.
And I can do for myself. I'm not helpless.
Maybe discouraged and faltering, but not helpless.

When you do something for me that I can and need to do for myself,
you contribute to my fear and weakness.
But, when you accept as a single fact that I do feel what I feel,
no matter how irrational, then I can quit trying to convince
you and get to the business of understanding what's
behind this irrational feeling.
And when that's clear, the answers are obvious
and I don't need advice.
Irrational feelings make sense when we understand
what's behind them.

So, please listen and just hear me. And if you want to talk,
wait a minute for your turn;
and I'll listen to you.

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[myself] When there's a need to eat...

I have to eat snacks whenever I get upset >.<
This is so sad....

Today I'm sad,
Today I'm frustrated,
I want to eat,
I saw McDonald,
McFlurry,
That's all I need...

[Payment] Donkeymail (1st payment)

I can't believe my 1st payment is from Donkeymails ^^;;
But it is, so there.
I promise myself that I'm gonna award a page just for my 1st payment ^^

But then again, it's sad that I'm quitting this site because my upline refuses to complete our deal, or better IGNORE our deal... (- 3-)

People might say "Are you crazy? Giving up the chance to make money because of that?"
But believe me, it's not petty at all.
I can't help but thinking about my dishonest upline everytime I click on the ads.

[New] TVXQ latest product~

Toki wo Tomete [CD+DVD / Jacket A]

Dong Bang Shin Ki (Tohoshinki)

Toki wo Tomete [Jacket B]

Dong Bang Shin Ki (Tohoshinki)

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UNTITLED [CD+DVD / Jacket A]

JUNSU

UNTITLED [Jacket B]

JUNSU

Whoa, Junsu has his own CD ^^
I heard that it's Junsu's own composition =O

Dong Bang Shin Ki (Tohoshinki) Otakara Photobook - The Secret -

Go Tomisaka, TVXQ Henshubu, Dong Bang Shin Ki (Tohoshinki)

[Lyric] 時ヲ止メテ (Toki wo Tomete) - 東方神起 (DBSK/TVXQ)

作詞：Shinjiroh Inoue
作曲：Ichiro Fujiya

急ぐように　夏の星座たちが
ビルの谷間に　傾いて隠れてく
通り過ぎる　僕らの毎日
ちっぽけな事で　泣きそうな時もある

いつか君が行きたがっていた
あの店はもう無くなってしまったけど
どんな日も　僕たちは
「ふたりの恋は終わらない」と信じていた

時ヲ止メテ　ずっと君の　そばにいたい
見上げた空　願い込めて
ひとつひとつ　輝く星　繋げながら
君の形…　探してた

好きだよって　上手に言えなくって
波打ち際で震えた　幼い恋
たどたどしく　並んだ目と目が
瞬きさえも　惜しいと感じていた

砂に書いた誓いはすぐに
引く波にさらわれて消えてしまっても
あの頃の　僕たちは
「ふたりの恋は変わらない」と信じていた

時ヲ止メテ　ずっと君の　そばにいたい
もっと君を　抱きしめたい
ひとつひとつ　君の事を　覚えながら
永遠だけ…　信じてた

時ヲ止メテ　ずっと君の　そばにいたい
見上げた空　願い込めて
ひとつひとつ　輝く星　繋げながら
君の形…　探してた

時ヲ止メテ　ずっと君の　そばにいたい
もっと君を　抱きしめたい
ひとつひとつ　君の事を　覚えながら
永遠だけ…　信じてた

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Lyric credit: music.goo.ne.jp
Picture credit: Yesasia.com