[Rant] Kayem is Kongo? I was cheated? I have no idea… T^T

When I first heard of it, I don’t want to believe it. I thought it was someone’s mean prank to make fun of Kayem’s name. I really don’t want to believe it… I don’t…
I still don’t believe it now but if it’s true, below is how I really feel…

I have wasted buckets of tears for someone who doesn’t even exist? I felt so cheated, so cheated of my feelings. I spend my nights thinking about ‘her’ after reading her ‘will’ in Soompi. I should have notice that ‘she’ is somehow weird when ‘she’ mention that Ewing Sarcoma happens mostly to male rather than female. [You should really get it, Kongo]
I thought Kayem is really devoted to our TVXQ and even in her ‘deathbed’, she still thought of Junsu. I really thought that our family [Cassiopeia] has lost a good soul (a rotten one, indeed). I cry a few more buckets when I wrote her a tribute in my blog. I never thought someone would be so twisted that ‘it’ would post as someone else and live a fake life online. ‘She’ seems so real to me and it just never occurs to me that…
*take deep breath*
Oh God, I feel so cheated… T^T
Am I naïve? And I thought I won’t be fooled by anyone after being a netizen for 5 years.
And now I had it, and it’s a hard one too… Ouch!
I really respected Kayem and this is what I get?!

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After a moment of thought, so Cindy (sister) is fake too?

Rest in peace Mun Kyung Min [July 2, 1989 - December 2, 2007]

Rest in peace Mun Kyung Min [July 2, 1989 - December 2, 2007]
--Kayem7289--


I just come to know that she have passed away three month ago and there’s no need for me to open the wound again by mentioning it but I want to write about my feelings for this girl. I was scrolling down the page of J!Ent for the updates in TVXQ questions and answer when I noticed the word ‘passed away’. I was shocked and I stop to read the details. Then I know that a girl, a fan… one of our worldwide Cassiopeia have passed away. The name seems to be familiar… Kayem…! I think I know her. I must have downloaded some of her videos or saw her post in forums. To think that a person can die, I am speechless and was choking with emotions. This is not the first death I’ve heard but this is the first death that I can feel the lost and struck by it.
I google her and found that she have left messages in Soompi (that’s must be the place I saw her). I save it back home and read it all. I don’t know why but my tears keep pouring out and I’m dehydrating here. It is just like watching ‘A litre of tears’ but Kayem’s post is true and sincere. I mean more familiar to me. People may think I’m crazy for crying buckets over a girl I’ve never met, barely known and… I have no idea. I just feel the lost, okay?!
How can her stage two deteriorate into stage four? God is a little mean, if you ask me for giving her a false hope. I admire her for her will to live and the efforts she made. Plus all the positive things that she can still say in this kind of situation. She even prepared a note for everybody when she passed away. Complete with jokes and her ‘genki-ness’. I think she will hit me with a plank because I was crying so much. I hope her drawing will eventually make it to Junsu’s hand considering it’s a piece of memory of Kayem.

-I’m sorry that I’m not able to be friends with you before you leave. Maybe it’s not my business but I’m sorry for not knowing it when you left. Kayem, you make me realize how important life is. Thank you. I hope God will [s]let you stay at Junsu’s side as a guardian angel[/s] keep you well in his embrace. Thank you and rest in peace. From Suyi

I dedicate Junsu’s Rainy Night to you.
[… I can’t say goodbye coz I love you]


I'm sorry to waste such a good song on you, goddammit!! I wish you DIE well, seeing that you have already prepared for it (in Kayem's post)!